Thursday, January 22, 2009

Making the best of it

          So what's been going on lately? I apologize for having so much time in between my posts but you have to believe me when I say I've been busy! There has been much going on and hopefully I can fill you in on some of the things.

          First off, I've somehow injured myself....again. I really don't know what happened but after one of my basketball games my knee was killing me! I never really found out what was wrong with it but I do know that my left knee, the one that was operated on two years ago, is much weaker than my right knee and I have to strengthen it. I'm hoping that I can get that taken care of and be back to normal soon. It really sucks being injured but if there is one benefit of being injured it's that the injury helps you to put everything into perspective in life and in sports. After playing for a while you begin to take health for granted and forget how blessed you are to be able to run, jump, and just be generally healthy. I wish I could go my whole life injury free but I think every now and then you need that reminder to appreciate what you have!

          Lately I've been a little down I guess maybe because we are really close to not making the playoffs and as a team we just have not been playing well. We were eliminated from the cup about two weeks ago and that really upset me. A week after that we lost to the same team and that was the game I was injured in and I managed to put up my career low, 1 point! I've never in my life scored that little but I was literally useless in that game. My knee was giving a lot of pain and I just wasn't able to operate properly. Needless to say after that game I was pretty down. But recently I've been taking a different look on things and it has made things much better. I naturally am a person who doesn't want help and thinks that I can control everything and don't need anyone. I am learning more and more to lean on my faith and to just trust God in everything that I do. I honestly believe that God has a plan for my life and whatever that is I just have to be open to receiving his guidance. Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge him in all your ways and he shall direct your paths." Sometimes I don't understand why certain things happen in my life but I trust that God is shaping me and making me a stronger person. It's important for me to realize that because if I'm doing my best at everything I do, what else is there to do?

           Just recently my coach was fired and it has shaken up a lot of things in my club. Naturally when something like that happens I begin to think, "Is my job in jeopardy?" I've been reassured by officials in the club that they are not looking to replace me and that everything is okay but in this business I think you have to always keep your ears and eyes open because there are some shady people everywhere. In the end people tend to look out for themselves and in this situation I think I have to do the same. My injuries don't help the situation at all. All these thoughts begin to go through my head and I begin to think that I'm not ready to leave yet! I have many friends that I don't want to leave right now and I'm enjoying myself over here. 

         Im excited about a trip that I will be taking shortly with my friend Carole Retter. I am going to London, and have been wanting to get over there since I first got over here to Lux but just have not had the chance.  I will be there for roughly about 3 days which in my opinion is enough time to see what I need. I don't get many days where I can go traveling so the days that I do get I try and take advantage of. Like many other parts of Europe, London has so much history and is been ranked by many as one of the best cities in the world. Hopefully I can take plenty of pictures and be able to share those with you guys! Well thats all for now...check back soon!

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